push through the resistance - life & business lesson

i find that i often stop my own train of thought or my process of creation, because i wonder if it’s even meant to be created, 

or if its worth writing about at all. 

this is the struggle of any creator. 

i suppose i am less worried about failure or scrutiny and more worried about apathy. 

less so about the acceptance of others, but more the apathy of the universe. 

like everything i do needs to create some sort of dent in the universe. 

but i suppose the act of creation itself is the dent i am looking for, 

i could have easily watched videos, or played world of warcraft or figured out some way to avoid my creative process. 

but writing itself despite the mental stops and the readily available distractions is the dent, i find myself reminding myself of this. 

i know it might be possible that you felt this way today as well. 

maybe one way i can help push you through your resistance is to show you what the first draft of this email was, below is the actual stuff i wrote before i came up with today’s topic:

“today i’m struggling with focus and figuring out something good to write about, it feels like i can’t do it or do anything well made, i think of the stuff i wanna try and how often it might feel like this, where i just sit there and i just can’t come up with anything fun, i feel drowsy, an unreal amount of brain fog, probably all the pasta i ate, just trying to focus is a chore it’s insane. perpetual boredom is a reality of my life but man does life get crazy if you want it, maybe my goal needs to be to create the most interesting life i can come up with, and to avoid the mundane things as much as possible. visiting back home always slows me down for some reason, i guess i can get ou tof the house, get some fresh air, it’s already 7pm EST, i slept in

went for a walk, i remember the old days of going to highschool, that was my entire world, i reminisced on the times i had on the school theatre, and remembered the teachers 

how to get rid of the mundane, i often get paralized in my writing by being concerned about what you want to read, i am going to get ready for what an audience of what, i want to define what my audience is, but really it’s just a collection of my thoughts. 

maybe tonight we keep it short, create a list of things

i’m back at home visiting family”

those of the unedited thoughts of a supposed successful man. 

half of that shit isn’t even coherent, 

but i pushed through and promised myself i would write about SOMETHING, 

even if i didn’t publish it, i was going to create. 

push through the resistance my friends. 

- vessal

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